Four years ago now I thought going to law school was the answer to all of life's problems, the promise of a path to a higher purpose.
Since graduation I have ascended hills and descended to lower valleys wondering if it was all a myth, an ego trip of some sort. The idea I could be a lawyer...just the word seemed to have so much effect (I'm sure a lot of Investment Bankers might be feeling the same sentiment right about now).
I have finally reached a place I can convincingly (to myself) say I am right where I am supposed to be. I have learned:
-my "problems" will follow me until I deal with them, no matter how good the job, the relationship, the house, the weather, the circumstances.
-inner peace is paramount to anything else, which requires one not to care whatsoever what anyone else thinks, and also requires the ability to make peace with everyone in one's life no matter what has happened (it's for me not them, but both benefit).
-the ego causes many more problems than I ever could have conceived.
-giving to and helping, in whatever capacity, someone else pays more dividends than any paying job ever can.
-my mind is a beautiful thing, but can simultaneously be rather torturous, control is a work in progress.
-out of this hell I emerge a forever changed and better person, but I am eagerly anticipating the end, while also trying to embrace patience to ensure a polished finished product.
That is all for now.
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